Chica

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I keep trying to think of something happy to write about during my time drinking. I can’t. So I’m going to keep on with the morbid and continue with something I mentioned in my last post. Chica. My beautiful Doberman dog I had. I was in a very abusive relationship when I was 17. I’ve probably said it before but ill get into that, just not today. I had a Vauxhall corsa that I’d gotten from my mum for my 17th birthday. I couldn’t drive yet but between my mum and dad they were trying to teach me. When I was with this horrible man who beat me everyday I was so alone. The only friend I was allowed was his sister and to me that wasn’t a friend. Because she stood back while he hit me off walls and some other things we’ll get into. So I sold my […]

Emotional Attachments

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It’s 11.41pm, by the time I post this it’ll be morning. I have just finished working a 1-10 shift at my job and all day I’ve had something playing on my mind.. The mess in the storage compartment under my bed. I couldn’t stop thinking about it all day. I have been dying all day to tell my work I was ill to go home and clean it out. I never though. That’s why at half 10 at night I started cleaning out the storage under my bed. I’ve already put a post up about my cleaning tendencies but this is not about my OCD habits. While I was cleaning out under my bed. I was throwing away everything because it was all stuff I didn’t use or need. I was texting numbers in my phone and getting rid of things to friend and family members when I came across […]

5 Ways To Beat Cravings!!

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When I first stopped drinking the hardest thing i found was the cravings for alcohol. Sometimes they would be so bad I thought they could kill me. But they can’t and that is what you need to remember. I got some awesome help with ways to deal with cravings instead of giving in to them. Today I want to share 5 with you. 1. Pick up the phone. It is so helpful and it’s something that I’ll be honest with u, I haven’t done. I don’t know why I didn’t but I wish I had. U can phone a friend or family member when you are craving and all you need to say is “I am craving so I thought I’d give you a call instead!” You have no idea how much the person you phone will appreciate you openness and honesty and your decision to turn to them instead […]