The last couple of days have been a bit of a blur for me. I have a life changing decision to make and I can’t seem to make up my mind yet. Which brings me back to something I mentioned in a previous post.
When getting sober you have to re-learn all these things that any non addict has imprinted on their brain. Thing is when we start taking drugs or drinking and we do it everyday as our routine. We forget other things that we should already know. We forget how to be an adult and how to make choices on our own.
It takes time to learn these abilities again and we can’t rush ourselves. We need to learn all other things too. Like assertiveness to say no. But how do we do it? How do we learn things that come naturally to so many other people? We work hard.
We in recovery work so hard everyday just to be a better person and everything we do takes work. It’s what makes sobriety and living the life we deserve worth everything we have gone through. All the blood, sweat and tears that have out is in this place where we are now.
It takes practice. It takes practice to say no and it takes practice to take control of our lives for the better. The feeling of being in control can be scary, but the feeling of spiralling out of control where you are sitting on the sidelines not being able to do anything but sit back, watch and cry as your addiction takes over is so much more scarier.
Whatever choice I make I will be happy, I will be sober. And hopefully I will be supported by my amazing family. Keep strong and keep learning all these small things that may be taken for granted. You definitely will need them.
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